Sorry I've been away for so long!

So I've been away for much too long. There's tons to discuss.

I'm freaking out about how old I'm getting. Like Roxy said, "I'm much older than I ever intended to be."

Maybe I'm only sixteen, but I want elemetary school back. Yesterday, I was playing on the playground with one of my very best friends..running around like goofballs, swinging, sliding, spinning on the merry-go-round. How much longer can I do that and get away with it? I want to act like a crazy teenager for forever. I'm a Junior now. I remember being in kindergarten, for crying out loud.

Don't get me wrong, I can't wait for college. Being on my own is exciting to think about. But I need my friends to be as close to me then as they are now..and I know that's nearly impossible. We aren't all going to the same colleges, we aren't heading the same places in life. But what can I do without having them available whenever I need them? It's scary.

I have been so so incredibly blessed with my friends. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be the person I am today. I never feel pressured to do anything like drinking or partying..I can be myself. And how many people pack their Bibles when they go over to their friend's houses? Not very many.

I love them like my sisters. They know more about me than my actual sister does. And I am having seperation anxiety already.

On another note, there is no one of the opposite sex in the picture right now. I mean, I get lonely sometimes. But I've realized that I'm not in a relationship right now because I haven't met the right person yet, not because I'm some sort of terrible person. There'll be someone someday. But just not today!

Speaking of relationships..that one between one of my best friends and one of my guy freinds that I was unsure about? It didn't work out..he cheated on her with some red-headed skank who was fully aware of his situation. His TAKEN situation. And being the hot-headed, over-protective best friend I am..I was pissed. To say the least. I left him a very angry voicemail and had to restrain myself from driving up to his house and kicking him in the balls.

This anger passed. Now I just want better for my beautiful bestie.

Now, though, I must go do something "productive".

See you later, readers.

Lovelovelove.

Anna