Weekend blog.

The weekend started out badly, since my period had me curled up on my bathroom floor like I'd been shot in the abdomen..but things could only go up from there, right? And they have..slightly, anyway.

I slept most of the day today, which was fine with me. When I was awake, I texted people.
One of whom was the guy I mentioned earlier. I still don't know about him. He calls me "babe" and "darlin" and "sweetheart" like he's liked me forever, but we just started texting this week? Part of my brain thinks he's just lonely and talking to the first girl he thought of. I think he just wants someone, and who it is doesn't particularly matter. He showed up on my Facebook newsfeed talking to some gorgeous girl(s). Just talking, but saying some of the same stuff he says to me all the time. Which sucks. I know I don't have any kind of claim on him, but it still bothered me. I'm probably stupid for that, but there it is.

I was driving home the other day, and I just got this "stop trying to date in highschool" thing in my head. Out of nowhere, there it was. I got freaked out. I still don't know if that was God or what..I guess I'd better figure it out.

I've realized that I don't need a guy to feel good about myself, and that is a total accomplishment for me. I used to be in the whole "I'm ugly, boys don't like me" mentality. And that was NOT healthy, let me tell ya. Now, I can honestly say that I'm alright. Sure, some days are a little lonely; and I wish someone wanted me in that way..but most days? I'm good. I figure that God made me the way I am, I should just learn to accept it.

On that note..this guy? He says he wants me. But he wants too much too quickly. He expects me to know whether or not I like him like, yesterday. And I don't know. I don't even know if I'm supposed to date anyone right now. So I have no idea what to do.

I should go to sleep, I've got church tomorrow.


Adios,
Anna